Monday, March 12, 2007

Lying

I have been lying to a lot of people lately. And I have been lying to myself for almost my entire life. Just now I SMSed the GF, asking for her help if she could talk to him. I told her he often skip his sleep and meals lately. I know she could do something about it because they contact each other often. She told me he sleeps and eats like he always do. Maybe a bit lesser than he used to. But he is sleeping well and eating well. I guess they are now together. Without him telling me anything about it. I guess this is the time I have to leave. Should I bid him goodbye? Or should I just walk away silently? I'm trying to collect some strength to walk away from this. But I doubt it would be easy.

3 comments:

admin said...

if u dO want to leave the relationship, i think it is better to say goodbye in a proper manner. at least it shows to him that u and him are now in a diff direction. and give u strength so dat u wont think about it back in the future...just my 2 cents :|

buTTerFLowEr said...

noooooooooooo... i don't wanna leave him... huhu~ back then when we were just friends he asked me will i leave him like what most his friends do and i said i won't leave him. now i've got more reasons why not to. huhu~

i need the strength to turn to him and say "i'm glad i'm ur friend". who knows if i need to deal with the pain seeing him breaking apart? enuff with my own issues, i don't want to hurt him too.

i don't want to leave him but i don't want to kacau them oso. u know. leave him like "we're back to just friends" n then pretend like nothing actually happened btwn us n so die leh blk kat gf die n i'm still here as a friend, wishing him the best in his love life.

waaaaaa... susahnye!!!

neway, thx.

admin said...

well...not exactly goodbye as if "sayonara" and not seeing again. but for me a "goodbye" saying "ok you can go back to yo gf".like u said it la, become normal friend but dont have any special feelings nemore.huhu.
as for the matter, it is u who is to decide for ur life kan ;)
feel free to make any. every decision one make in life is never wrong, it is just the matter how to deal with the decision they make :)